You have to let it all out to start again.
So this time next week it will be my last night as a 35-year-old. I’m getting that antsy feeling. That “there’s more to life than this” feeling. My life is good, don’t get me wrong. But the feeling that I want to do something I really want to do. The how much more 9-5 stress can I really take feeling…
You have to listen to your tears. And sometimes you have to cry just because.
It’s scary how the words you hear and the messages you take away affect the rest of your life.
I have come to dislike the word interesting. Really dislike it.
I’ve determined that for me, the golden hour is a complex time. At once it feels like anything is possible all the while my mind starts going to worst case scenario and that antsy feeling starts. It’s the hour of mental/physical/emotional overload for me.
It appears we can start sleeping with the windows cracked open. Thank goodness.
10 pillows on the bed. Excessive?
I think I’m going to start reading Gone Girl. I’ve only had it on my kindle for months now…
Note to self: Don’t live your life so that you end up feeling stuck somewhere.
I’m seriously wondering what it would take to pack up my family and move to Europe.
We don’t give ourselves enough credit. And tonight I’m feeling that it’s too easy to go through life doing without getting to really know ourselves. Days turn into weeks turn into months turn into years and one day….
Just last week I was contemplating (yet again) growing my hair out. This afternoon I got it trimmed. I’ll be rocking the pixie for a while.
Q. What lights your fire? Q. How do you want to fee?
Judge less. Repeat until it really sinks in.
Last night Beau was mesmerized by a vlog by a couple with a baby. They blogged about taking naps, feeding the baby in the car, debating on whether to buy the iPhone 6 or the iPhone 6 Plus, and running errands to Ulta. For the life of me I can’t figure out what had him glued to it.
How opposites attract…. Me: Upstairs listening to The Desire Map. Shane: Downstairs watching Sons of Anarchy.
I think work-day Fridays should end at 3 PM. For all professions. Plumbing, I’m talking to you.
 Happy Weekend to you!
teri f says
Lizzi, your comments are always so interesting. I know very much what you mean about that what’s next feeling. Pay attention to it. When you feel the rumblings and undercurrents, and finally understand what it is you’ve been feeling, you can no longer ignore it. Pushing it down makes us sick. I know because I did it for quite a while in my life. Let yourself try on different scenarios, even ones that don’t seem possible, or plausible. That’s what I finally learned to do, and it was life changing. So often, we’re afraid to really examine what our life is telling us we need.
lizzi says
Thanks Teri. I’m at a place in my life where I feel like I can start thinking outside the box a little bit. Or at least think beyond my everyday. The push and pull are coming from different places now, and that has me looking at everything from a different perspective. I’m not sure where all the rumblings and undercurrents will lead me, but I feel a certain freedom I’ve never felt before. It’s liberating and scary and exciting all at the same time.
Thauna says
Oh I have a lot to say….but I’m past my golden hour and overwhelmed working on brain dead for the rest of the evening. Ditto and amen to what Teri said. Read Gone Girl…excellent writing. I’m going to see the movie this week, can’t wait. I’m currently obsessed with Son of Anarchy…something about last seasons are seeming to draw me in when I’ve never watched before. I’m in Season 5 now and I just started the week Season 7 premiered. BTW, have you watched Mad Men? Same thing happened to me with that show…and the people are more likeable, haha. Happy weekend, Lizzi….I’m glad Friday thinking posts are back!
lizzi says
I just started Gone Girl tonight, and wow it pulls you right in. I’m already creeped out and I’m only on page 2. I wanted to watch Mad Men but never did. (Really, that is the story of my life… I want to watch shows and never do, or I start them, get a few episodes in, and then life gets in the way and before I know it it’s season 8 and I’m still on season 1!)