You know when you’re friendly with someone and therefore you think you’re friends, but then you start to get paranoid that it’s leaning toward being a little one-sided and that maybe you’re not really friends after all and you start to feel like a dork and you keep thinking that even though you thought you had so much in common maybe you really didn’t and all you can do is second guess yourself and all you want is for people to like you, really like you? I hate that feeling. I’m so insecure sometimes.
I’m probably too impulsive but it’s better that than being full of what-ifs.
I’m probably too impulsive but it’s better that than being full of what-ifs.I’m in the mood to go to a baseball game.
I’m calling my thirties my work in progress phase 1 stage. I’m excited to think of my life will be like at 40.
Bear hugs from a 2-year-old revive the body, mind, and spirit.
Show what you’ve got. Whatever it is.
I’m not necessarily into re-inventing yourself, but I am into being who you want to be and changing when you want to change. Don’t trap yourself.
I’m loving my (pretty much) non-computer weekends.
I’m feeling good and relaxed.
If you email me a question, look for a reply in an email. Don’t come to me 5 minutes later without having read my answer I sent you 4 minutes before. So simple.
The kids in our neighborhood started school Monday. Isn’t it still summer?
My newest vice: M&Ms. They’re becoming a food group.
I think a lot about my neighbors. One set reminds me of the neighbors in “The ‘Burbs” but without the malnourished hillbilly look. They’re just a little off, or maybe they’re just super private. Either way they creep me out a bit. And on the other side, I’m wondering where they went. Maybe they’re snowbirds, but they left their pool uncovered, so I’m not so sure. I’m so nosy. Don’t you wish you were my neighbor?
The language of yesteryear is beautiful.
I always feel unsettled during the summer. Must be a holdover from school. I’m anxious for fall just to feel more focused.
Back to neighbors again…The across the street ones just got a Great Dane and he’s adorable in that massive dog way and I really want one now. Like Rowdy and Sami don’t drive me crazy enough.
The sky is the best show around.
Sometimes, especially on Fridays when it’s quiet, I feel like I’ve been sucker punched in the gut. I literally get that breathless feeling. I remind myself that my life is good; it could be better, but it could be worse. It’s just my life at this point. It’s not my life forever. There’s more to it than just now, this day, this year. When I think about that I feel a little less breathless.
Is July too early to start thinking about Christmas cards?
Enjoy your weekend and I’ll enjoy mine!
E. Kempton says
I've been thinking about Christmas cards lately too. I think I just want cooler weather, and my kids busier.
Tamye says
I am so looking forward to Christmas and cooler days. And I too love the language of yesteryear. " Oh you're too Kind" 🙂 BTW your pics are AWESOME! (had to shout it)
Marie says
I can relate to feeling like a dork sometimes (with friends, or people I think are friends).
So you don't use your computer at all on weekends? What a radical idea! (Says the woman who is on her computer on Friday evening.)
I bought a bar of dark chocolate at Trader Joe's (the really good kind) and hid it in my underwear drawer (away from my hubby). I just had two squares. Scrumptious. I have to hide it or he would devour it (and not 2 squares at a time!).
Lori says
All right…let's see how long this ends up being…
I worry all the time about making too much effort. You start to think maybe I'm being annoying or I'm just the fat kid the no one really wants around, but includes sometimes to make them feel better. And then I start feeling resentful and wondering why I'm the one that makes the effort. So then I pull back and feel like I've lost a friend.
Best of luck with phase 1! I'm constantly reinventing myself in the sense that I change what and when I want to change.
Despite your potentially nosy ponderings, I'd LOVE to be your neighbor!
Summer is rather unsettling now that I'm in college. I feel like such a transient.
I know what you mean about feeling sucker punched. And that so beautiful: "…it could be better, but it could be worse. It's just my life at this point. It's not my life forever. There's more to it than just now, this day, this year." Beautiful!
I loved your pictures! Fantastic!
Holli says
The pictures you posted on here are stunning Lizzi…..you have REALLY impressed me!
I think I go through that friend thing every time I meet someone now in my adult life. I often feel that exact way…. you summed it up perfectly. I want you to know though that I still think of you as a great friend, still feel like we have alot in common, and I still feel like you get me. Just so you know! 🙂
I'm guilty of your email thought….sorry if I've done that to you! And you are right…. I should wait for a reply in email form if I send my question that way. Makes sense!
I'm going to start doing non computer weekends too. I try to but get sucked in and I don't want to do that. That time is for Brad and I…..
M.J. says
Wow, are those photos of the sky in Arizona? I was thinking about planning a Grand Canyon Hike for next summer, and also visiting Sedona while I'm in Arizona. Your beautiful photos just gave me the extra push I need…I can't wait to camp beneath the Arizona skies!
Brenda says
Lizzie,
I know what you mean about the friends thing. I always get paranoid that maybe I am pushing a little too much and they are just being polite. It is hard to decide, but if I really like the person, I plunge into the deep end. Better to be rejected than to not discover a new friendship.
As for M&Ms, did you ever try the new "gourmet" ones. I prefer the raspberry…OMG, amazing!
And, I so understand what you mean about the email. The teachers at work drive me crazy. They don't read their email despite the directions that are constantly conveyed through them, and then when they are the 10th person to ask the same stupid question that was already answered in email, I don't apologize when I bite their heads off. ARRRRRRGGGGGHHHHH!
Mandy says
I am the same way with friends. I actually end up building a wall because of my paranoia. It's easier to not let people close. That's something I have to work on.
I've been thinking of Christmas Cards too. Mostly because I'm a last minute type and I always end up running out of time and don't get around to doing them. So I figure if I start now, they may be done in time for Christmas.
I like your thoughts on the phases of your life. It makes me embrace 30 that much more.
Finally that last bit on your blog…"I remind myself that my life is good; it could be better, but it could be worse. It's just my life at this point. It's not my life forever. There's more to it than just now, this day, this year. When I think about that I feel a little less breathless." LOVE THIS!! Made me feel a little at ease. A perfect reminder!! Thank you for this. =)
Cyn says
So funny you should write about Christmas cards, I was wondering about what mine would be like this year this morning on the way to work!